Thursday, June 17, 2010

Blah, blah, blah

According to my CT scan, I have lymphangitic carcinomatosa. Don’t bother googling it; it just says things like: “poor prognosis”, “fast progressing” and “short survival time”. As Daria would say "blah, blah blah".

I talked to my oncologist last night and he said that it’s not good news but not to panic yet (easy for him to say!). He asked that I give them a chance to try and get it under control and that if the Xeloda doesn’t work, they can add Taxotere (I had good results with that for the tumors in my lungs a few years ago).

I’m trying my best to take his advice. After all, what choice do I have?

When I started this blog, I wrote this on my profile: “While it may be necessary to go to the 'dark side' at times, I want to create a blog that is about living in the moment and finding joy in the small things.”

It was so much easier to live in the moment and find joy in the small things when I didn’t have actual symptoms from the cancer.

I guess this is the ‘dark side’.


Amanda Sterczyk said...


I cannot even begin to imagine how heart-wrenching this news must be for you. Please know that many people who love you are thinking of you and pulling for you. If there is anything at all you need, please don't hesitate to ask. I am taking the kids strawberry picking - would you like some fresh strawberries?


bellstitt said...

Imagine you're in the boat with us this weekend - close your eyes and enjoy the ride as we take you with us. I'll be paddling for you! cheers,
PS for some reason my google account doesn't work with this